Just that busy.

I have just been that busy. Working on marketing plan. Novel is coming along well. Traveling a lot this summer and there's a lot to prepare for. It's a thing called terrifying, and a lot about his teeth. I love this blog but I may start clean. I don't want to lose anything.

That's it, though. I don't want to lose anything. And there's not much left to gain. I'm finally happy and every thing's going to be shaken. There's no fairness there.

Eating chocolate and Altoid's as usual. Went trail riding. Did things. Doing things. Anyone reading this can't expect much or anything from me, but once my novel is published you'll never hear the end of it. It has to sell, see. You'd break a boy's heart otherwise.

Deathly Hallows

How could I not? How could I not address it? I am rereading the 7th book, learning about all the symbolism, deciphering metaphors, and most importantly rekindling the love and devotion that's bound me to my life saving hero, Harry Potter.

Reserving my premier tickets was a stressful experience; even though I did it over a week ago there were phone calls to make, and in the time it took to fill in credit card information my fav theater sold out =.= I did eventually get my ticket, though! I'm excited to go.

Writing University essays, too. About Journeys, accomplishments, experiences... and Harry's in all of them. At some point. Unavoidable.

Psycho boys galore, now that's what we've been lookin' for!

Reading proper material lately:

I AM NOT A SERIAL KILLER by Dan Wells
INVISIBLE by Pete Hautman
HAWKES HARBOR by S.E. Hinton

Reading about psycho boyz and writing about psycho boyz at the same time has been feeling calmer and better than I have in a while... I just finished INVISIBLE, and I predicted at about page 10 that Andy was either imaginary or dead. I was right about both :-) I guess it's a nice twist, having both. Now I've got to wait a bit longer before I reread THE HANGING WOODS, as it's all in the same genre.... correctly predicting INVISIBLE has me really appreciating how subtle THE HANGING WOODS is... Kudos, Scott. MR. MONSTER will be out soon. That one I'm buying. I'm not done reading HAWKES HARBOR yet. I'm trying to take it slow cuz I love it so darn much.

Still final drafting my novel. Luck to me. *gulp* writing a story is so damn hard... it really shouldn't be, it's been around so long. But it is.

Candle Wax

On his face, dried, may make no difference.

Moving conceptual posts to this blog again.

" '...Talk. Talk about the things you really want said. Don't tell me about your family, your childhood, your friends or your feelings. Tell me about the things you think.' "

--Howard Roark, The Fountainhead

What do you think?

Rimbaud

I went to a used bookstore today. They did not have Rimbaud's poetry in english or french. Nor did they have his biography in english, or Total Eclipse. But they had his biography in French!!! A real old one, too. For five bucks! So... I got it. the biography I'm reading from the library is great, and from an award winning biography. They had his biography of Victor Hugo there... I would buy the biography I have from the library, too. It's that good. But mostly I'm disappointed not to find Rimbaud's actual writing in French. That's most important to me now. Creepily enough, I found the Black Stallion on DVD but it wasn't the movie... apparently there was a TV series!! That gives me the chills, but I bet it's cool. They also had a great copy of the Wizard of OZ, and I FINALLY found the Eddie Dickens Trilogy, but I've decided to get those from the library. Anyway, back to work....

Total Eclipse

The last several months have been me flying in and out of several types of writer's blocks that I didn't even know exist, let alone was able to diagnose. However, this finally changed after seeing clips of the film TOTAL ECLIPSE on youtube. Arthur Rimbaud not only a sex symbol, but my inspiration. Seeing him played by the baby faced precocious Leonardo Dicaprio drove me right back into my proper place as a NOVELIST. Watching small clips each day kept my going, it was my air and water. TOTAL ECLIPSE is laced with the gift, the force, the intangible thing that I've fought to capture my whole life. So you can see why I was devastated to find that even the clips on youtube have been removed... by the user. I'm flailing, desperate to see the film again--, but it's nowhere to be found. My local rental store has closed down, and I'm broke and stranded at home. What can I do?

I've spent my last pennies on a controversial translation of Rimbaud's poetry, which I'll be receiving in the mail. Oh the desperation.

My kitten is darker

And bigger. I'm pretty sure he's a siamese-maine coon cross, now. Only nine months old and already bigger than my senior kitty. Anyway, I know I haven't posted in a long while. Things have been remarkably hectic. Alan and I were up at three AM this morning--, but it wasn't a bust. I got about a page and a half and he got a little less irritated. Finished another moleskine. I can't wait to start my new one but I'm waiting until my birthday to do that. Mickey and I did start MM journals, and I finished mine. You can see it at this link: youtube.com/user/shethewriter

I have a lot going on as usual, trying to focus on schoolwork and the latest novel. Starting up some new projects this month. Mickey's not using the internet anymore which is wicked crazy and I don't know what to do with myself. Me and Alan are both kind of pissed at everyone we know right now. Poor us, we the abandoned, blah blah blah.

I really need to send a message to Angel. I hope her and the baby are doing great. She hasn't been in for a while so I feel really out of touch, even with everything that's going on. I signed up to edit the latest lit mag issue but I was never given the manuscript, so I don't know what's in it. But I plan on going to the reception anyway.

I took both my kitties to the vet recently and they came out with a clean bill of health, except that Kish-Mish has been prescribed chew sticks so that he can teethe, as he is an oriental cat. Also his doctor recommended I do some advanced training with him, because he's so intelligent. And I have been doing it. He's learning fetch, how to walk on a leash, and I taught him that if he wants something he should grab my hand with his paws. This has been working so well! The other day he wanted be to open the door for him so he scratched at it and touched my hand right away. I did not even have to prompt him. And he's undergoing toilet training, too. God I hope that works.

Bessboos, after about eleven years, is finally starting to use his litter box properly. And for the first time in years he's shown interest in toys, so he plays now. I still feel he is lonely without Biscotti, though, and Kish-Mish just bothers him all day. But he's certainly a happy orange cat.

I can't wait to make videos with all the stuff I trained Kish-Mish to do. Youtube eats that stuff up.